self standing

You've heard it all before. "Stand on your own two feet." "Carry your own weight." "Just put one foot in front of the other." "Walk a while in another's shoes."  There's more.  They all assume that walking is a given.  That it is a decision.  That you can just decide to do it and you can. 

I don't know how the body works.  I know a lot more than I did 15 months ago, but the mystic of the operations of our bodies is nothing short of a miracle.  Science, yes, but a miracle none the less.  Every little connction has to be in line.  Our bodies are perfect and the greatest gift from God. 

But when things are not working perfect, one little spot in the spinal cord.  Really, I saw it on the ExRay.  One little spot.   One litle spot is not firing perfectly and it messes up everything.

Jed has made improvement.  Through determination and attitude and amazing professional care, he has made good progress.  But he still cannot do for himself. 

His great focus of late is to stand unassisted.  Self standing is just a given after age 2 or so.  It's like breathing, we just do it without thought.  Self standing for Jed is a major struggle, an occational success and often a crushing dissapointment. 

Tonight I told him that he was amazing, that no one could do this better than him.  My God, he's 70 years old and he has not given up, he stays positive, even though he is in constant pain and suffers from boredom. 

He is standing on his own two feet.  He is carrying his weight and he's putting one foot in front of the other.  It is just such a struggle.